8am on Tuesday morning (yeah, I woke up late) the music blog This Is Fake DIY Tweeted 'My Chemical Romance; Secret Show and Video Shoot, Tickets on Sale 9am'. It's safe to say that my little heart stopped beating for a second.
(I may be a whisker away from turning 25, but inside me lives the spirit of a teenage rock lover - I have never attempted to hide my emo soul) Music is my escape, my freedom - and an integral part of my identity!)
I existed in a state of paralysis, unable to even eat my cornflakes, until the tickets went on sale. When they did, instead of the usual Ticketweb palaver of the site getting overloaded and crashing (which is something they do so that they can sneakily sell tickets to touts, according to Ann Robinson off of Watchdog, knower of all things scam-ified) my transaction went through smoothly.
It's safe to say that at this point, part of me felt like I must have been the victim of a massive con. Why on earth would one of America's biggest rock bands shoot their new video in a tiny Islington venue, to an audience of just 250 fans?
There was no information about the gig on the internet - not even on MCR's own website. The only stipulations given by Ticketweb were that we were to 'come dressed in your colours or your Killjoys apparel'. I do enjoy a costume challenge...thanks to Topshop's new psychedelic Snake Valley range, I was already the proud owner of a ridiculously colourful, angel-sleeved, superhero-in-a-California-desert dress, so then it was just a case of piling on the crazy makeup and I became a bonafide Fabulous Killjoy.
Thursday evening came around, and I found myself in the largest concentrated mass of emo angst in the UK. There was a line of teenagers (and not so much teenagers) dressed in every colour of the rainbow, superhero masks, and sporting every shade of hair colour Stargazer have to offer.
It's safe to say that the collective excitement in this queue was off the Richter scale - and reached hysteria proportions once we were allowed to rush into the venue, to be confronted with the massive spider backdrop from the Danger Days tour...
I can't really say much more apart from this was one of the most enjoyable evenings of my life - whatever your opinion of My Chemical Romance, they are a brilliant band to watch live, and seeing them play had been one of my major 'things to tick off the list'. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine I'd be watching them in a tiny room along with just a handful of fellow obsessives.
The crowd went wild went the band stepped on stage - we were so close, it felt like they were performing at a houseparty. After treating us to a Greatest Hits set, we had to do some leaping around for the directors cameras, before the band gave us a goodby present of 'an oldie but a goody' (in Gerard's words) Vampires Will Never Hurt You, from their first album.
MCR may get a lot of stick from the tabloids and music press, but to be honest, they are one of the few bands today that put on a brilliant rock n'roll show, and unite their fans to the point of family. A truly euphoric evening...made perfect by their performance of I'm Not Okay, a song that changed my life.